exhausted

i have not had a pleasant day.

i am not going to write about it because i'm sick of this being a dumping ground for all of my negative experiences.

suffice it to say there are days when living here feels like walking among the living dead. people are going through the motions but to what end? life is something to be bitter about, and what the hell am i doing here smiling?

i am exhausted.
i am losing motivation.
7 months to soul restoration and all things familiar and challenges in my own country.
i have never been so proud to be an american.